“We are who we are. Lottery sucks.”- Olivia Wilde. One of my favorite T.V. shows to watch is House MD. In the most recent episode, #13 (Olivia Wilde's character on the show), makes an interesting point when she mentions that who we are is written in our genetic code. For example, if you are a sad person no matter how much you do to try to be happy, you will always end up sad. This seems unlikely to me, however my personal experience says she is right so far. I think I am going to try to prove her wrong, If I fail it wont matter much because Ill just end up were I started right? something else that made me think was this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nvb2EAfOo-4 I can relate to this guy, and maybe most of us have a twisted view of ourselves. For example sometimes I feel like I am just a collection of the movies and TV shows and vloggers that I have seen. I want to live like the cast of 'how I met your mother' be as cool as "the doctor", have the inside of my mind be like 'donnie darko', as care free as 'weezy waiter', have the political knowledge of 'the amazing atheist' be able to create movies and videos like 'freddie wong' be able to cook like 'epic meal time', be as good a person as 'philip defranco', be as cool as 'jason segel'. as successful and hilarious as 'adam sandler'... and the list goes on, and on. I honestly don't remember if I ever was anything of my own, If anyone was.

Song of the day:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wAM8BqjfcIM (this one is not at all related to the post, the song of the day is usually what I was listening to while I was writing the post)

I like to listen to music when I wake up, simply because I enjoy it. It usually is the same or pretty close to my emotional and mental states. Today was odd, I started out listening to crash kings, the suddenly i got a craving for MC. Chris, this song in specific ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z0BIazf-7j4) You might recognize it from, Zack and Miri Make a Porno. Am I the only one this happens to?.

I didn't do anything today. I thought about doing things, and it always feels like i did something but I really didn't. I watched a bunch of movies, ate doughnuts and pop tarts all day long. And I dont regret it, but I probably will do something tomorrow, go for a walk, call a friend, build something. I really cant remember what I used to do to entertain myself before I had a computer. Do you?

Song of the day: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OYws8biwOYc

My life is boring. My older sister is a high school dropout working at a hospital as a doctors assistant, she is a regular at the shooting range, lives by the beach, and she honestly has almost no money at all. She should write a blog. Not me. I am a junior in high school I dont know were I am going in life, I spend most of my time in front of this computer, and I only have two or three real friends, and 150 facebook "friends". My life is boring, and I should not be blogging but it feels right, and good. Today I got caught ditching 6th period, my excuse seemed valid to the assistant principal. I told him the truth when he asked me were I was supposed to be and why I wasn't there, I said "Fashion class I have trouble being in there wouldn't you?"(I am not a girl),then he gave me a pass so I wouldn't be marked tardy and he said "you are better off leaving the campus next time" and then he let me go. Fuck Yeah.

Song of the day: http://youtu.be/4NZdggNUvq0